All my life, I've always been a "reason" person. I've been seeing the world through a "reason" point of view, that is until I've met you. I've always made decisions based on reason rather than emotion, but that is not always the best decision, because in the end, we are all still human, and humans are made out of emotions. You've taught me that not everything is as complicated as it seems. Sometimes if you think too much of the outcome, the more complicated things will become. If you feel like doing something, just follow what your heart tells you to, and you'll be surprise of how the outcome will become.
All my life, I've never done something that I regretted, not until recently. When we started to date each other not long, you once asked me that if I were to rate between family, friends and you, where do you stand. Till today, I deeply regret saying those words to you and I'll do anything or pay any price just to go back in time and slap myself in the face for saying those words to you. I told you that I would put family first, because in your lifetime, you only have one mom, one dad, they are irreplaceable. Second, I said my best friends, because friends come and go, but true friends stay with you till the end, and they are irreplaceable too. Third, I said it was you, because girlfriend, once broken up, you can find another one. I was so foolish then, I should have just followed my heart and said, I'll put all three at first place because they are all equally important to me and they are irreplaceable. I know what I've said hurt you deeply, other than saying sorry, I don't know what else to say, if only I could take back what I said back then. Life really tends to play tricks on you, the things you want to protect most, always ends up getting hurt. I swore to myself that I will not let anyone or anything hurt you, but in the end, I couldn't protect you from being hurt, by me. But I promise you, that I'll make it up to you somehow, believe me, I will.
Now that we've been together for quite sometime, I start to realize, that you have become a part of my life and a part of my family. I cannot lose you, I cannot afford to lose you and I've come to realize that in the end, it will be you who will be by my side till the very end of my life. Eventually I will have to start a family myself, I cannot rely on my parents forever, but one thing I know is for sure, is that I can always rely on you no matter what. You mean the world to me and I treasure you like no other. I can no longer be reason when I'm facing you, little did I know, that I'm slowly becoming a sensibility person. Not that I'm against it, but I actually kinda like it, it makes life less complicated. As Confucius once said "Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated".
Lastly, I want you to know, that I don't make promises that I don't intend to keep, so when I promised you no matter what, I'll always be by your side, I'll always love you for who you are and not what you are, I really mean it. I'll keep that promise or die trying. Although I may not be superman, but I'll always be your man. I'm forever yours faithfully.
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